#115: :( FUCK LIFE.

Last night has got to be the most horrible night ever.
First, my mum. Got scolded like shit just because the phone bill was RM100++. That to me is a bg fucking improvement compare to the bill 2 months ago which was RM600++. But i couldnt care less whether she appreciates it anymore. I'm doing it for my sake now.

And then that blardy fucking idiot.
Do not want to get into details.
But i gave up in the end.
So did he.

Slept for bout an hour. Was uncomfortable cause i had to sleep on the other end cause my other end had been overflowed with my tears & mucus =P But that wasnt the reason i couldnt sleep. And i couldnt believe that i couldnt sleep because i was troubled. Normally, i would have just fallen fast asleep after crying too much. That was when i realised i still cared and wished that night didnt happen.

And i woke up at 6.30am today after sooo many months of waking up at 6.50am. Hah. Went to school with very frizzy hair and 2 swollen eyes. Reached class, wrote some stupid thing cause it was over and i dont want to care anymore. Got kinda stuck, then when Zaqir gave me his jacket, saw my puffy eyes, asked me what happened and i told him and cried again. Felt kinda stupid.

Didnt eat much the whole of today.
Milo in the morning.
A tiny biscuit during break.
2 of pyee's plain crackers during lunch.
And i dont feel hungry at all.
Which kinda surprises me.
Must be the depression i guess.

Slept for 2 half periods today. Slept during sejarah when Tana gave us papers to do. Guess he didnt mind cause he saw my face when i sat with Su Ann in front of him. Thought i was just sleepy. But when Johnston told Chandra i was sick so i could sleep, I realised i was very sick. But being a good girl, i still did the paper Daisy gave for us to do during Moral and went to sleep. Felt even sick when Zaqir told Hasni and she came and touched me. I was like, "shit. i'm so fckin hot." But i couldnt really sleep cause of the noise. And was talking to Zaqir and i cred somemore -.-"

Lunch was the best part of today i guess. It was rather ughh at first but when i saw yuanm's face all pink and all cause of the sambal i started having fun. I even had to get water for him. Then we all started and fooling around. Laughing bout the past and the "stuff" on puiyee.

Went to tution with puiyee.
So & so.

But everything's ok now.
And i still feel sick now.

yunsin

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