#096: So Fucked Up.

Last night was just horrible.
I couldnt enjoy Elfie's party cause was just too worried bout something (i'm really sorry, elfie). So i left home early. As in way wayy early. Might as well get through everything then go to sleep than wait til i get it at the end of the day.

Almost broke down right before i left. Eyes got teary in the car. Dad didnt talk & he was driving real fast. So, that means he's angry. Went home, ready to get it but nope, relatives were at home, put on my fake smile, took the cordless phone, cried my ass off while on the phone with idiot.

He's like the only one i can talk to. Though the things are just what everyones say everywhere, i know he's trying his best to lighten me up, to make me feel better. I appreciate it alot. He's been through all that so he understands the other me alot. Something noone knows, not even pyee or cher.

SherLin too. I love her alot. She forced me to tell her everything that depressed me. In the end, the thing that depressed me most got fixed & i had a leaking nose which just wouldnt stop leaking and puffy red eyes during cyrens prac. And because of her too, idiot understood another point about girls. Straight forward without hurting him & *zap*, he got it. Wow. The power of SherLin, eh?

Last night was just horrible.

yunsin